thinking and thinking

lying down facing my laptop, singing to this song..damn, i like this song

Let You Down by POD

No one knows what goes on inside of your head
And everything seems to be ok.
And your the same as you've always been (your the same)
If I'd listened, would you have talked to me?

I don't wanna Let You Down,
But I can't even pick up myself.
I only wanted to make you proud,
But I don't think I can do this anymore.

When did this crowded room get so lonely?
And everyone keeps looking at me.
I'm tired (so tired) of faking my life (faking my life)
I'm so tired, I don't wanna feel this way.

I don't wanna Let You Down,
But I can't even pick up myself.
I only wanted to make you proud,
But I don't think I can do this anymore.
(do this anymore)

And you mean more, You mean so much more
And you mean more, You mean so much more
And you mean more, And you mean so much more
And you mean more, And you mean so much more

I don't wanna Let You Down,
But I can't even pick up myself.
I only wanted to make you proud,
But I don't think I can do this anymore.


this is another song dat i like..start headbangin..lol

chapter four by avenged sevenfold

Give me your hand, (Conceived and born was one of light)
blood is spilt and man will follow
infernal man, (Rain and dark, the other born black night)
punishment too great to bear

Raise your head and taste the courage
(the one of light)
Fall from grace, unholy night

I've come here to kill you,
won't leave until you've died
Murder born of vengeance,
I closed my brothers eyes tonight...

[Repeat from the beginning]

It's cold tonight as the clouds turn grey
and from my hands to my brothers grave
You took his side, you took his gift,
feel the power of a fallen man,
crestfallen man...

Far away in this land I must go,
out of the sight of the One.
A punishment sent from His hand
a hardship that no one should know
Now go out of the sight of the One,
away in this land you must go.

Where has he gone? What have you done?
A voice commands from high above this earth.
From the soil his blood cries out to me
Murder, liar, vengeance, deceit.

Far away in this land I must go,
out of the sight of the One.
A punishment sent from His hand
a hardship that no one should know
Now go out of the sight of the One,
away in this land you must go.
[Fade out]

is it ok to put the blame on love??

love and faith, is two alternate word..but sometimes the word 'faith' is commonly known as 'ego'...two difficult terms..and what if i put the word 'love' and 'dignity' together?perhaps, everyone can say, i can never abandon my dignity just for the sake of love, but how many of us really hold onto that?
i'm not pointing my finger to anyone, (i am also in somekinda romantic relationship with who i think i'm in love with~wink), but sometimes people make mistake and put the blame on love when d one who is guilty is ourself..think of it..when heart is being broken, some say that they dont trust in love nemore..but why is love is being blamed, when we met the wrong person at wrong time and perhaps wrong place??
sometimes, love is used as a tool to show dignity.."why should i tell dat person dat i love him/her?it is soooooooooo not me. i have a face to keep", this is nothing to do with dignity, this is what we call honesty...but what about this, " i cant live without him or her, i know he/ she is cheating on me....but, i just love her", this may have something to do with love, but there is more foolishness and just being selfish..holding on because you dun wanna let the person u love to be happier with person that our partner may really be in love with
it is true that love knows no boundary, but we humans, we live BOUNDED by rules and values..if we let go what we held dear to our beliefs in the name of 'love', then, where do we fall as a human?i see things around me sometimes hard to understand, by being in love, itz like we have signed an MOU that allowing ourselves to be hurt.."but no pain no gain"~well said..but how many actually stands still with what they believe?
i believe that what we do, we have to put all our love in it, put our heart in it...love is a way of showing affection, and dignity represents our self..both are important, but have different values in different eyes..mine?hehe..let me keep it to my self